I spend my money on cigarettes and vodka and birth control pills,
On skirts and shoes and hats
And silky gowns – just to please them.
I smile and trip and fall,
Get up, cry a little,
Talk a little, fly a little.
I play such a bad victim.
I play such a bad abuser.
I spill my ego on bathroom floors,
2 A.M, girls who talk about the boys
Who never called back.
I spread my ego like make-up
Like black mascara or black eyeliner
Like lipstick or blush,
All over my face,
All over the place.
I spend my ego on sports cars I never drive.
I spend my ego on shoes I never wear.
I spend my ego on boys and girls
Who turn out
To be someone else’s toys.
Photos by Dorin Moldoveanu